The road switched again for me yesterday (Tuesday, November 18) when I had scans to see if the direction we’re going in is the right one. The results indicate some of my cancer tumors have grown slightly, some were the same, and some were somewhat smaller; in other words, nothing was remarkable either way. Also, one or two other tumors not identified previously were visible for the first time, probably because they had grown enough to be seen on the scan. No “new” tumors were reported, however. These scan results—combined with rough side effects, negative impact on my corneas and vision, and elevated C-125 markers for the last few weeks while I was on the drug—make staying on this trial no longer advisable. I’ll start trial #4 after Thanksgiving.
I confess that for most of the day yesterday I was disheartened by the news, and I didn’t pay close attention to the details of the new trial other than my oncologist feels this is the next step. Right now I’m carefully reading the trial protocols and information about side effects so I can meet with my doctor on Dec. 1 to go over everything. I continue to be very confident in the care and support and medication I’m receiving at Sarah Cannon Research Institute from Dr. Skip Burris and others.
This morning I noticed again the verse that’s painted in our kitchen: “His mercies are new every morning” (Lamentations 3:23). Reading those words are such a relief for me because I know I’ll be fine. The way forward has already been prepared for me because nothing that has happened or will happen surprises God. My circumstances can be overwhelming at times, but then isn’t that always true of circumstances? Keeping my eyes on Jesus and His promise never to leave or forsake me is the only way for me not to feel overwhelmed.
I am deeply grateful for your prayers and love and concern.
Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will for God for me [and you and us] in Christ Jesus. (1 Thessalonians 5:18)