After 7 weeks, my platelets are finally over 100—105,000, to be exact. That’s great, especially since the trial protocol lowered the treatment threshold to 75,000.
For the first time in the trial, I received the cycle 6 drug on the 21-day schedule yesterday rather than the usual 28- or 35-day cycle, which is another bit of great news.
Cycle 5 and 6 did not include carboplatin—that drug’s been stopped due to my recurring low platelets—but the side effects of the study drug have been more noticeable. They’re not unbearable, and I can handle the occasional discomfort. More good news.
It’s been a month since my mother died, and I’ve mourned her loss every day. The little things sneak up on me—ice skating competitions on TV that she loved to watch, the beauty of spring and the fragrance of flowers, her sweet smile and gentle words that were always welcoming, the pure joy she had in being alive another day. I know things will get better; I know I’ll be better too.
I want to share my good news with her: As long as this study drug is working and the tumors are shrinking or simply not growing, I can continue the trial drug infusion every three weeks. That’s wonderful news, and I know what my mother would say, “Oh, Cynthia, I’m so happy for you. That’s an answer to my prayers.” My mother was a woman who always believed in the power of prayer, and I believe in its power also.
Listen, I tell you a mystery: We will not all sleep but we will all be changed— in a flash, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. . . . When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true: “Death has been swallowed up in victory.”
“Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?” . . . But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15: 51-52, 54-55, 57)
Happy Mother’s Day, Mama. Sleep sweetly in Jesus until we meet again.
Upcoming schedule: Day 15 labs on May 19; scans on May 23; scan results and cycle 7 day 1 study drug infusion on May 27. I am grateful for your prayers.