cindytripp

thanksgiving November 20, 2012

Filed under: Uncategorized — cindytripp @ 5:32 pm

A year ago I was in the midst of preparing for our family Thanksgiving, making my requisite 3 trips to Kroger, and anticipating my family sitting around my paternal grandparents’ dining room table as we enjoyed our meal. I was coughing a lot too and had a general feeling of discomfort, but there was nothing specific that alarmed me.

Needless to say, my February diagnosis of stage 4 lung cancer was utterly shocking, and the change two weeks later from lung cancer to stage 4 unknown primary was not tremendously reassuring. The following weeks and months unfolded with moment-by-moment surprises and challenges and blessings. Today, nine months later, I still wake up sometimes with a clutch in my heart and a feeling of shock that the diagnosis is true and that I still have cancer.

One truth, however, has resonated throughout this experience, and that is how faithfully God has provided for me and my family. Last Thanksgiving, God knew what I would need. On that February afternoon, God had already prepared the way—the people, the places, the encouragement, the medicines, everything that I would need when I would need them.

This Thanksgiving I am so very thankful for His faithfulness and His provision. This Thanksgiving I am grateful in ways that I can’t express, and I am joyful to know God’s love in a more powerful way.

What’s the latest with my health? My scan last week was “better,” according to the oncologist. “Better” means that the tumors are not growing, which is great news. Even though they are still there, the tumors aren’t growing. Yea! On the other hand, the neuropathy and the bone/joint/muscle pain—which I thought had the same source—are not getting better. The likely culprit for the b/j/m pain is the tiny, little anti-estrogen tablet I take every day, the same tablet that is depriving the tumors of the estrogen they need to grow.  Ah, you probably see the dilemma, right?

The doctor asked if I can “push” through my days, doing what I need to do, despite the pain. My answer is sometimes I can and sometimes I cannot. I do believe that I am tougher than I think, and so I will continue to push through when I can and go home to rest when I cannot.

I also know that my faithful God continues to provide because these struggles are not news to Him. I don’t have to remind Him of what I feel because He has not forgotten me.

Today was our Thanksgiving service at Brentwood Academy, one of the most precious times in our school year. We opened worship with the song, “Blessed Be the Name” (written by Matt and Beth Redman; recorded by the Newsboys; sung in countless churches and gatherings around the world):

Blessed be Your name
When the sun’s shining down on me
When the world’s ‘all as it should be’
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there’s pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I’ll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name.

Blessed be His name indeed. May you too be blessed by reality of the glories of our Lord.

Happy Thanksgiving.

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7 Responses to “thanksgiving”

  1. Sally Delvaux Says:

    Cindy…I always pray for your complete healing, God’s presence, peace and hope.

    Added to this now will be for you to feel God’s direction: “to push” or “to rest”.

    I am so thankful for you and love you, my friend,
    Sally

  2. Fran Kirkpatrick Says:

    It was good to see you at the BA Feast. I enjoyed our visit and will continue praying for you and your family! God Bless!!

  3. Lisa Flow Says:

    So thankful for you. Hope you and your family have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
    Blessings,
    The Flow Family

  4. Cathy Longeway Says:

    Cindy,

    Thank you so much for sharing at the Thanksgiving service. Although I didn’t have an opportunity to speak to you personally today, it was so good to see you. I was blessed by your words and appreciate your sharing.

    I read recently where accupuncture can help some of the muscle aches. It was either in a nursing journal or from an online Oncology website that I read. I’ll try to find the reference and send it to you. It might be worthwhile investigating.

  5. Peggy Says:

    I so appreciated what you said today in the BA Thanksgiving service. You are part of my prayers.

  6. Gina and David Stansell, Ben, Willa and Dora Says:

    You are a blessing to us! We are thankful for you and for the journey you share with us. We continue to pray for your healing. God IS good and His love endures forever. Blessed be the name of The Lord. Happy Thanksgiving!

  7. Susan Shafer Says:

    Thankful for you!


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