keeping on keeping on September 27, 2012

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Nothing much has changed with me since the last update, except that the PET scan ordered for Monday is no longer scheduled. Insurance decided that the CT scans I’ve had should give all of the information needed, and so there is no PET scan Monday. My positive spin on this is that a PET scan can be scheduled if any of the indicators change in the weeks or months ahead. On Monday, October 1, I’ll meet with my oncologist and have another Avastin treatment. It will all be okay.

My neuropathy continues to be a challenge, but I am trying to anticipate the struggles and to react before the pain becomes too much.  I’m also trying not to be grumpy but to accept this as something I have to handle. I admit that some days I’m better at the not-being-grumpy and the accepting-this and that some days I’m not very successful.

I apologize for not keeping in touch with almost everyone. I’m still concentrating on resting and trusting, and most of the time that’s all I can do. Once again I’m confronted with the fact that focusing on the moment and trusting God with the details is hard work. I really, really thought I’d be better by now, and so I’m often discouraged by the reality that I’m not—and that’s why I haven’t been posting or replying or connecting. Please forgive me.

Then, of course, God steps in today in a powerful way. My dear friend Jane encouraged me to read today’s entry (September 27) in Sarah Young’s wonderful devotional book Jesus Calling. Of course, God planned for me to take heart from Sarah’s dear words (and if you do not have this book, I encourage you to purchase a copy!):

Relax in My everlasting arms. Your weakness is an opportunity to grow strong in awareness of My Almighty Presence. When your energy fails you, do not look inward and lament the lack you find there. Look to Me and My sufficiency; rejoice in My radiant riches that are abundantly available to help you.

Go gently through this day, leaning on Me and enjoying My Presence. Thank Me for your neediness, which is building trust-bonds between us. If you look back on your journey thus far, you can see that days of extreme weakness have been some of your most precious times. Memories of these days are richly interwoven with golden strands of My intimate Presence.

The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. He will drive out your enemies before you, saying, ‘Destroy them!’ (Deuteronomy 33:27)

“I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. (Psalm 27:13-14)

God never fails. When the clouds are all that I can see, He is My light.

PS  Today is our daughter Emily’s 28th birthday. Since she now lives in New York City, it’s the first time that I haven’t seen her on her birthday, but I am confident that our hearts are together. Happy birthday, sweet Mimi!


5 Responses to “keeping on keeping on”

  1. Rob DeRossett Says:

    Thanks for sharing the devotion. Always praying for you. Love you, Cindy.

  2. Joy Brandon Says:

    I read that entry myself this morning!!! Honestly, I thought immediately of Reed because he has just been diagnosed with Mono 😦 But what a perfect word for all of us. So glad to “hear” from you again 🙂 Still praying!
    Also, I’ve not forgotten the vase. Just struggle with coming by unannounced and empty-handed! ha 🙂 Go get some rest!

  3. Rhoda tripp Says:

    Hello, dear Cindy, I read your blog and I will continue to pray for you and the family that I love so much. I’m proud of you and wish you didn’t have to hurt so much. I sent “miss Em” a happy birthday. Am glad she got a job. It doesn’t seem possible how old she and the other 3 grandchildren are. Time passes too fast. I love you, mamaw

  4. Christy Stanga Says:

    It was so good to see you this week, Cindy! You always have a smile for those around you, and your simple presence is encouragement and inspiration. You remain in our prayers.

    Christy Stanga

  5. Sally Delvaux Says:

    Cindy,so glad to hear from you. Jesus Calling has gathered dust over the past year so I pulled it out after reading your message. How powerful! I plan on reading it with you throughout these days. You are in my prayers and always on my heart. Love you so much, Sally

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